life for me is pretty easy i must admit. i live w/ my aunt and uncle in exchange for various odd jobs around the house. i have enough money to get out and do something once a week, so I fish, or go downtown and check out musical venues. I go to the gym a lot, too. but everything sucks. I have no passions. i have skills, but no passions. ppl tell me i could be a cartoonist with my drawing skills, I play guitar and sing quite a bit for 10 years, I’m somewhat of an experienced carpenter, i have an above average iq, and i learn things very quickly. But nothing matters to me.
nobody can make me laugh, except my own brother, nothing gets me excited beyond the point of saying "oh, that’s cool". day to day my most common thoughts are about how life is meaningless, and how i need to get laid but it aint gonna happen because im such a downer.
my only dream is to get myself off the grid and completely cut myself off from civilization, but apart from that i don’t strive for anything… and to be honest, i’m too damn lazy to do anything about that one goal, anyways.
i have no understanding of emotions, the only thing i feel is hopelessness. women don’t appreciate that, and i can only think of one thing that will help to pick me up… women. i want to start dating, but i don’t know anybody in this town. i started on some online dating site, and i am somewhat shallow, just so you know, but the only girls that get matched to my profile are the greasy mustard-tiger types, and i just can’t figure out how i’d find the hole… j/k. seriously though it’s not working out. Has anyone been stuck in a rutt like this and climbed their way out before? i won’t kill myself because i want to live long enough to see the world really crumble beneath its pathetic foundations, which i sense will happen in my lifetime. but i will get really fking depressed and who knows what i’ll do? i feel like im losing my mind.
They Jump real High for it!
February 14th, 2010 at 6:54 am
Me and my friend just go all over Yahoo Answers answering question and using the word bub as much as possible in all the answers. It works bub. Bub, it works. BUB. Go be bubular Bub, and bub yourself up. Be the bubbiest bub you can bubble! Me and my bubby bub you Bub! Bub.
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February 14th, 2010 at 7:41 am
im literally in the same exact boat
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February 14th, 2010 at 8:07 am
could be that your parents didn’t enjoy life and so you never picked up that emotion. It’s a learned emotion by observation, and if you aren’t interested in learning or even have enjoyed being around people then it’s your loss. You could change that by reaching out but reaching out to be a friend and not necessarily to want a friend. In this way you will be moving forward for what you need in life even though it’s a selfish mood it is needed at this time simply because parents and family eventually pass and you’ll be left alone in life and you won’t have to run to your inner self and cut yourself off from civilization it will just happen naturally. You probably want to run because you don’t have that interest in people that you should have learned as a child. Sure in time your dreams of being alone will occur but in the meantime you will have missed the enjoyment part of life which you said you are interested in knowing about.
What’s strange about your comments, your paragraphs, is that you’re saying of the things you’re doing that everyone else finds enjoyment in but to you it suks. You do use lots of negative comments but since you have no interest in leaving life I presume you’ve grown accustomed to being negative and you realize it and you like it that way and if you like it that way then you really don’t want to change, therefore why ask us about it if you like you the way you are?
My only suggestion would be for you to see a therapist long term because what has happened to you has happened apparently over a long period of time, and perhaps you spent too much time along and wallowed in your negativity but didn’t see it as negativity, you saw it as merely living. The only reason a person would see a therapist at all would be because they are dissatisfied with something in their life that they wanted to change because it’s interfering with their living or accomplishing something they want to accomplish. You don’t talk about the future so I’m assumiing (maybe incorrectly) that you are happy with where you are and aren’t moving forward or planning to move forward so I see it as it’s hurting your future but if you don’t see it that way then that’s fine too. So when you get tired enough of you then you’ll see a therapist. Good luck with that.
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February 14th, 2010 at 8:36 am
You just live your life and do the best you can. If you have clinical depression, take a pill, get a therapist or maybe you just need to get drunk and stupid once in awhile. Life can be dull and predictable but educate yourself, read books, do volunteer work, go visit dying people in the hospital, go to a comic book convention, get some perspective on life and see that it’s not all about you. I think the problem is that people are too selfish. It was only when I started experiencing personal tragedy that I appreciated my life but it’s important to have goals. I understand you’re just a guy and you think sex is the only thing that matters but it’s not true. The problem is you are too cynical, stop focusing on what sucks about life but on what is good. Find beauty in the small things. If you draw, draw something good. Do you live in an urban city? I know when I lived in the city I was very cynical, maybe you need to move to the country, get away from mainstream civilization. Seriously though, don’t be stuck up, date a girl who you usually wouldn’t give the time of day and get to know her, you might find out she’s really amazing. If you wait for physical perfection you’ll just end up getting played by some stuck up witch who just wants to use you for your money. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, if you look at the soul of a person rather than just their "opening" maybe you will find joy.
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February 14th, 2010 at 9:10 am
Is it me or is anyone else thinking that the way the world is going to end for us humans is that we are all going to get depressed and commit suicide. Seriously, I am feeling the exact same way!! I mean I had passion and had life in me at some point in time, then all of a sudden it was gone. I see work as meaningless because your not saving the world (most of us) just shoveling paper. If you get paid its like a whole cycle. Work, get paid, buy sh*t you probably don’t need and you want more and more and more and its all money, greed etc. I don’t see the point of things anymore which is sad. And yes I too feel depressed and like I’m going nuts. How the hell are some people so happy and are ok with shoveling papers. Everything is starting to frustrate me too, like nobody ever knows anything although they work there. I think we are just going through some kind of rutt seriously. I refuse to believe this is it and that we will always feel this way. I think something is going to happen or come into our lifes or change and that will bring us out of this dark whole. But I’m right there with you….except i’m a girl and well i don’t think about getting laid ….as much
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February 14th, 2010 at 9:38 am
They Jump real High for it!
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